Is this just my ocd again? it get so unbelivably complicated and it looks like i can never get out.?

Go to your doctor and tell him about how you're feeling. Sounds like to me you need an anti depression/anxiety pill. It will help with your ocd too. Cause ocd happens because your brain doesn't produce enough seretonin and he can give you a pill that helps that. I have mild depression, bad anxiety, and bad ocd. My doc put me on Lexapro, and it worked wonders. It just lets you think straight and it puts your mind at ease! I've been on it for 3 months and I haven't felt frustrated with my family and my ocd has drastically calmed down! You really do need to talk to somebody, BEFORE school starts back!!! That way it will already be in your system and you will start school by being a brand new person. Good luck, hope I've helped. And go see your doc!!!